Goodbye

6 weeks ago i didnt have any idea i was pregnant 'till 3 weeks
ago i told my fiance when he came to visit me at work to surprise me.
he was schocked and very surprise he was speechless for about 5 minutes
and told me how happy he was. honestly didnt expect that reaction from him, i was
glad he was happy. coz i was over the moon when i found out that i was.
i told everyone my great news! i couldnt keep it in. i just wanted to let everyone
know my great news.
until 2 days ago i lost the baby.
the thing i couldnt understand is how easy it was for the person to lose a baby that
instantly and how distressing it was.. its soo hard.. next thing your pregnant and
the next minute your not.

An Angel
by AngelDust

Spent so long waiting,
Cried so many nights.
Dreamed of how you'd be,
Of holding you tight.

Picturing your unforeseen face,
The colour of your eyes.
Imagining cradling you,
Singing soft lullabies.

Wondering what it would be like,
If you were a girl or a boy.
Wish I could see your smile,
It would bring me such joy.

Can almost hear your laugh,
I'll never feel your touch.
I never got to meet you,
But I miss you so much.

I had so many plans,
A walk by the park.
Though you never came,
You certainly left your mark.

My arms ache to hold you,
Empty, they remind me you're gone.
But just as your mother,
I get up and carry on.

I feel so lost from you,
Though you have a part of me.
Time will certainly pass,
But I dare not set you free.

Because an angel you are,
An angel, you will remain.
You'll live on in our hearts,
Until we see you again.

reading this made me feel at ease. i know this sounds cheesy but it makes
me happy. even though i've been pregnant for 6 weeks. motherhood kicked in inside
of me and its the best feeling anyone can feel. being excited and soo very happy.